That moment when you are loving life but some of you closest friends are struggling hardcore. How do you get past this so called survivors guilt??? I have no clue. I’m still trying to figure all that out. It’s almost like I dont want to rub it in that I’m finally feeling human after all… Continue reading Huge plans

So I realized I never really did an update since my lumbar shunt surgery 4 weeks ago, or really since my hip surgery 2 months ago. I also return to work this friday, like 2 days from now, so what better time than the present. Those closest to me know how much I struggled, and… Continue reading Update on life…

Paingry…Its a thing. Pain does crazy things to people. More than most people realize. Often time the person in pain doesnt even realize…Or they are in so much pain that they dont have the energy to care. Surgery next thursday, dec 5th. A surgery I absolutely do no want. A surgery that I must have… Continue reading Constant pain changes people…

Dec 5th… Its the day another leg of my IH Journey begins. It’s the day I’m having a Lumboperitoneal shunt placed, as my current Brain shunt is no longer working optimally. This post has taken me two weeks to write, and it even sat on my blog for days until I came to a place… Continue reading Dec 5th, 2019…

4 surgeries 2 er visits 2 MRI 4 cat scans 2 lumbar puncture Who knows how many chest and skull xrays NAUSEA NAUSEA NAUSEA A handful of shunt adjustments Minus 20 pounds A handful of diamox and zofran prescription, oh and don’t forget the Fiorinal!! 2,000 ibuprofen, although I just picked a random number because… Continue reading 2017,really the past 5 months, may-oct…

Kelci was a light that no one could extinguish. She had a light about her that made you want to know her and be her friend. She definitely had the light of Christ and would have made an amazing Missionary… I guess Heavenly Father had a more important mission for you sweet girl… You will… Continue reading Miss you already Kelci…

Ugh I really get so irritated when people don’t realize what they have. One day your momma and daddy aren’t going to be there and you are gonna wish you had treated them better. if I would have even thought about speaking to my mom the way some of these young people do today, girl… Continue reading Mary…

I’m going to attempt to get up for church in the morning, well I guess its a few hours now. Hmmm. The image above is totally accurate in more ways than one. The bishop says read your scriptures and pray but these things are monumentally hard for a person who can’t remember the last time… Continue reading Inactivity